It was last year around this time that we found out we were going to be parents. From that moment on, my mindset changed. So many thoughts racing through my head – what is our life going to be like, what kind of mom will I be, what will the baby look like, what do we need to buy, how do we prepare for this anyways, what kind of changes are happening to my body…the list went on.
I was blessed to have a pregnancy that was surprisingly easy and stress free. I was expecting to be nauseous, but never was. I was really lucky I think to have such a good experience for 9 months. When the contractions started on a cold Sunday evening in January, however, that was a whole other story. I shudder just thinking about those contractions. Two days later, Aya was born. The delivery only took 30 minutes thank goodness. After one night in the hospital, we were so excited to bring her home and a little bit scared at the same time as we drove away from the hospital with her. Basically it was like “ok, here we go! Time to be a parent!”. I remember thinking how small and delicate she was. That we had to be extra careful with her.
The first couple weeks we were tired – partly from getting up to feed her and partly from just getting up to check on her while she was sleeping soundly. Paranoia. Nursing was a little bit tricky at first, with getting the proper latch, making sure her lips were on there and waiting for my milk supply to come in, but once she and I got the hang of it, it was smooth sailing. We make a great team. We also had a lovely nurse, Karen, who came during the first week to show us the ropes. She was just awesome. What a blessing to have her!
Fast forward to today. We are 2 and 1/2 months in and I cannot believe how quickly time has gone by. Seriously, where did the days go?? People would stop and tell us to enjoy the moments while they are here and I believe them 100%. It’s amazing how humans grow and develop at such a rapid rate. Our hearts just melt when she smiles or laughs. We are so looking forward to when she starts to talk.
I didn’t know what being a mom would be like and I was actually afraid of what my life would turn into. The thought of not working for a year was terrifying. I was worried I would lose my identity or be a terrible mom. I figure there are expecting mothers that feel this way at some point. Looking back, it was natural for me to worry about those things (as I tend to worry about the silliest of things) and that even though we read countless books to prepare, went to pre-natal classes to educate ourselves, there are just some things you can’t fully prepare for or predict. Like how awesome and fun it is to be a parent. Or how you can love someone so much. I mean, I thought I loved Tyler a lot, but my love for this little girl is a whole other level! 🙂 I’m hoping that I can document as much of this journey as I can. I think it’s going to be a fun one.